PLease everyone

Sorry I haven’t posted today like i had wanted to but, life came up and I’ve also been working on my other website that I thought this blog would have been transferred over there but apparently not so Im starting from scratch over there so please excuse me for not being here as much the last couple days. Though I did want to ask all my loyal readers to please go over and visit circle of moms and vote for me for top 25 mom blogs, it would really make my day to be in there and we only have until march 1st, so please please….I ask you…

Well, having a bit of a family emergency right now but wanted to get on here and at least  leave some kind of a message to ya’ll..

Love ya’ll

Kelly Lynn

Back to the drawing board!!

Well, Good evening folks. Welcome everyone to tonight’s blog, hope your not let down. Well first off I am rather let down but no fear I will bounce back, to explain a little. I was trying out this little part time gig which was merely part time and apparently ended before it really started..lol. While in a way I am glad it is over cause it wasn’t quite my type of work in another way I am bothered that they let me go. I had to call in yesterday due to the snow storm and my sitter could’t make it over due to getting stuck in the snow so I called in to work and today I am told that they don’t need me anymore. Wondering to myself if it was a bit of that and a bit of the fact that my sales where low too, either way now I can concentrate on this more. Yay!! 

Now, I would like to shine the spot light on a fellow blogger again this week, it is still the same as she will be in the spot light all week. Please check out not only her fantastic blog but also her facebook page. She blogs about a mental illness and it is something that a lot of people deal with on a daily basis, now I don’t have the statistics of how many due suffer in america but many Americans do these days. She has a great following and it was the second blog I found but it was the first bipolar blog I followed and was very happy to have found a blog of such magnitude and felt more comfortable about starting a blog about such a thing. So please check out her blog and her facebook page, 

http://themisadventuresofabipolargirl.com/

http://www.facebook.com/TheMisAdventuresofaBipolarGirl

I have to say again, both are well designed and she talks about the issue so comfortably because it is something that shouldn’t be hidden or be embarrassed about. If anyone suffers from it should seek help because like myself, who battles this daily, it can be quite a struggle with out support of some kind. The point she does make as well as myself on my blog is that we aren’t doctors and we don’t claim to be one, we are just explaining our own experience with being bipolar and especially myself is that I am trying to help people to understand and if I can help one person who didn’t understand it yesterday and by reading my blog today understands it more and knows someone with bipolar and is able to comfort a friend or a love one better. Then I feel I’ve done what I seeking out to do and that was to help anyone suffering from it. If it helps just one person out there than awesome, I am delighted.

Other than that, I have been doing more research to make my blog a better and better one than it can be and let me tell ya its a hard job..lol…but I am not complaining just learning more and more and hopefully my website will be better and better soon, that is in the works but please check out some of my tools that I have just added to my blog to help make your own blog better and better. There is a even a blog grab link you can click on to see what you can get so please people check out the new links to make your blog better than ever..I have it is in the works.

Thanks,

Love ya’ll

Kelly lynn

Scared!!

Well, I haven’t blogged about my health that much lately cause it seemed to be going okay despite some pain days but i know by now how to get through them for the most part. The problem I am having right now is the last two days I’ve noticed, is that my bipolar has kicked in Manic and it feels almost like an out of body experience looking in, and I am really scared right now. I don’t know what has triggered it this time and I am trying to control it or slow it down. Lately, it seems that when I get involved with an activity like I have the last couple days, I start to get manic, where everything seems to be rushed, I am being rushed, and my mind is clouded and I cant get it to slow down or stop and that really scares me cause I am usually really good about controlling this. It seems like i am so into the project that I have forgotten half the stuff I did tonight or yesterday in regards of what I wrote or websites I have visited..I just feel out of control and it really scares me, so I took some of my anxiety medications hoping that it might calm me down a bit…I don’t know if my medications are working like they were before and now its time to either change them or change the dosing…Cause I cant live manic all the time… I know this post seems kinda odd but I needed to vent what I was feeling because if you keep it bottled up inside, your worse off too. I know it doesn’t seem like my normal posts, I know but my blog is about my health too. Well, I am going to try and take a warm bath and calm myself down somehow…

Night all,

Love Ya’ll

Kelly Lynn

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Mondays ramblings!!

Well, here it again folks like promised….I went through my blog and was checking out a TON of different blogs yesterday and today to find the next one that I wanted to list as a blog everyone should check out and this one stood out for several reasons. This blog was the second one I found when I first started to get into blogging and it really hit home. She is an awesome blogger and blogs about her very own personal accounts with what people assume to be a horrible thing. Or at least that is what I have discovered when I first came out to people as suffering from the illness. 

Yes, folks I am talking about mental illness and how people perceive it and how people who actually have it deal with it or at least try to sometimes. Its hard to get people to understand what it is all about and there are so many different types and so many people who suffer from it (dont know the exact stats). This blog was the 2nd blog I read when I first started to blog but this is the first blog I started reading about mental illness. She rocks when she talks about it and her own personal accounts with it. While she expresses that she is not a doctor but explains all about it, I believe she is doing what I am doing with my own blog and that is trying to make people understand what its like, in the hopes that it helps maybe one person who didn’t know much about it before and now does. That is my hope with my blog and that is if I can get people to understand that might not have before they came across my blog, well then great my job is achieved.

So please check out her amazing website, http://themisadventuresofabipolargirl.com/,

Please also check out her Facebook page,http://www.facebook.com/TheMisAdventuresofaBipolarGirl

Once again, I hope you enjoy reading her blog as much as i do and if it helps to help you understand mental illness a little more now than you had before, I feel like what I am doing as a blogger especially with my own blog, my mission is complete!!!

Love ya’ll,

Kelly Lynn

Keeping with the flow!!!

So tonight as I thought about what I was going to blog about, I figured i would continue with my new idea and in my way promote someone else’s blog on my own. Not because they asked me too but because I think they really have a great blog going. 

So please everyone check out her blog and her facebook page because she really has a great idea going. She blogs about the the loves of her life, her children and husband. The other large portion of her blog is all about educational things like games and much more. It is really an awesome blog and I think everyone should take a look at it.

http://www.mt2sm.blogspot.com

http://www.facebook.com/pages/mommy-trying-2-survive-monday/

Once again I hope ya’ll check out these two sites because she put a lot of work into them and i truly believe they are worth the time.

Love ya’ll

Kelly lynn

 

Attention to all!!!!!

Please, I want to tell everyone somethings I just added to my blog in case ya’ll didn’t notice!!..hehe..well, for starters, I posted MY FIRST BUTTON FROM A FELLOW BLOGGER!!! PLEASE, check her blog out, it is amazing..not to say that anyone of my other followers blog is ANY LESS AMAZING…BUT, I figured since I had her button and I added it to my blog, I would start something new and start boasting new fellow bloggers so please If you want me to feature your blog…..send me your buttons…lol…OR I may just suprise ya’ll and go in search for it on my own!!! Now for me to create my own button…thats my next project…I havent a clue how to do that…lol….Next, I added my FB page and twitter addy…So please follow me there too….Well, I just got back from getting my nails and eyebrows done from the most amazing place in town, manitowoc, The place is TLC nails and Jet (I think thats how to spell his name, hes the hubby of the owners) but I have never had problems and they do amazing work. So if your ever in my neck of the woods you need to stop in there, Cause its worth it…lol….

Now, to tend to the girls….The oldest is having a friend spend the weekend cause her mom is having some kind of get together that was more adult than she wanted her daughter there exposed too and I feel better that she is here because they grow up too fast as it is…So my house is now the cool house on the block….lol…Little miss is sure loving all the big girls over here!!!

So here is my first of many mentions of amazing fellow bloggers and their amazing blogs….http://www.mt2sm.blogspot.com/…and her Facebook page…http://www.facebook.com/pages/Mommy-Trying-2-Survive-Monday/553008441397553?sk=info   Thought I would throw that one in there too, since they go together…So there you go folks, she does a lot with education and especially educating them fun ways….enjoy all….She is a fellow mom blogger and loves her family a ton….

Love Ya’ll

Kelly lynn

Daily Prompt: Proud

Daily Prompt: Proud.

Well, I guess I would have to say this is going to be a little sappy….I know, I know…what now!!! lol… I guess its been awhile since someone has said that exact phrase to me but for me I guess there is one person that my heart just cries out for to hear that exact word, tho it will never happen. I know in my heart she is looking down and saying it to me all the time, or at least I hope she is…lol… Its my mom and I love and miss her so deeply it just breaks my heart… See, she passed away shortly after I graduated high school when I was 17. She was sick for several years and I was the one who was by her side almost all the way up until she took her last breath but I wasn’t there, I had gone home for the night as I did each and every other night but something was different that night and looking back now, I could tell I knew there was something odd in my behavior and the actions of the night leading up to her passing on but like they say, people will often wait for loved ones to wait to leave before they pass away. But anywhoo, getting back to subject of hand… I would love to hear that word come out of my dads mouth but hes is very stubborn at certain things so I don’t think I will ever get those very words to come to life.  Like I said I know or at least hope they are proud, I don’t always or haven’t always made the best choices but for the choices that count, I think I’ve done pretty good. I’ve raised a 13 year old pretty much on my own her entire life and now I’ve been raising a now 16 month old. I would have had an associates degree but shy 4 credits, I’m working on my bachelors degree and have been for the last 16 months and now come the fall Ill be starting my 3rd degree at an actual campus based school. The first degree I almost earned was when I was working and raising my oldest on my own. So I guess if no one else is PROUD of me, I should be of myself because of all the odds that are against me like the 2 major back surgeries that I have gone through. I am still fighting to make my way to the top and stop their. Not to mention stay true to myself on here for the world to see and continue despite what people may think of me or what I say or write, but its me or plain and simple…. Love or hate me but its me!!!!

 

Love ya’ll,

Kelly lynn

Having fun with little miss!!!

Well, this by far is a very interesting topic and I guess one of my favorites so far. I guess I would have to say there are many “Shoulda Woulda Coulda” ideas but I will only speak on two that are most important and for sake of time and going on and on. Alright, so the biggest one by far is my issue with smoking. Its like that virtual monkey on my shoulder. I am not saying that I wont or I am not going to quit or anything to that matter but I am trying. Well, to be completely honest my trying days on are hold for the moment. I am being completely honest with myself here for the time being….lol… You may ask why for several reasons??? Why am I being completely honest, well why not right?!? If I cant be honest with myself here as I have obviously spoke about personal things in the past, why not continue right? Oh and your probably wondering why my trying days are on hold, to be perfectly honest again…..I don’t know why….I guess I just need to get a clear head again so that I can tackle it head on…That’s the only thing I can guess.

I can honestly…yep again with the honestly…see I am a very honest person with my feelings..I figure be honest and if people don’t like it, please then don’t read it. Simple enough. Back to subject at hand, I was almost there, down to the last couple a day…ready to say I am done smoking for good and I was feeling great. Was using the patch and then it all started to crumble before my eyes. I must be allergic to that adhesive as well, just like the fentanyl patch when I had my back surgery. I started to break out wherever I put the patch and then I started to panic and the whole quitting smoking was out the window for that moment. So I have to get back into the frame of mind to quit smoking before I can say I am gonna quit because trying to quit and actually doing it are two different things I actually figured out. I found out when you say that statement, you tend to smoke twice as much…lol…I guess you could say that I think I know in a sense what it feels like to try a quit a habit that your addicted to for the last 16 years just like a drug user or a prescription pill user is trying to kick the habit and I have found a new sense of understanding of how they must feel in the sense of how they have to change their thinking and how they conduct their life of a daily basis. It really sucks let me tell ya…lol…

Now for my other “Shoulda Woulda Coulda” issue…..Well, seems like something that should be second nature but for others, especially me…Is a daily battle…Its a daily routine and its like one I used to have before I became disabled, had back surgery and became sick on many different levels. I used to have a great daily routine and I enjoyed life, I used to participate as an active member of society and now I’m like a freaken hermit. lol…I mean I understand things are different and they are going to be different from now on and I have to accept them and fit my life accordingly. Yet I can’t even do a simple thing called a daily routine. How pathetic!!!!! I sit and make to-do lists everyday, a simple to-do list yet I can’t train myself and my brain to stick to it. I mean this is an example of my to-do list….

1) After I wake up, Make my bed.
2) Jump in the shower, 1st thing.
3) Do my hair real quick.
4) Check on the baby periodically.
5) Throw in a load of laundry.
6) Do what dishes are there. Usually not many at all.
7) Dust and wipe down counters.
8) Vacumme the house.
9) Throw in another load of laundry if needed.
10) Check on the baby….
11)Plan something for dinner…I get major anxiety with this one….MAJOR ANXIETY……
12) Somewhere in the middle the baby would wake up or be up and want breakfast and lunch…

Well, households around america do to-do lists just like this everyday and what am I that ridiculous that I cant even handle a simple list like this. Seems simple on paper right??? If only my brain would connect and I could accomplish that daily or if I accomplished it one day, because of the fibromyalgia usually it wipes me out the whole next day because Im too active one day..So I cant win for loosing. My health prevents me from doing a lot of things most times, and i hate using or referring to my health in the same sentence but lets get real right….I have to get real right??? So I give up…Theres days that Im not the same persons..and then days that I am wild women…and thats the bipolar in me…like I said I cant win for loosing…Anyone reading this, got any ideas????? Hopefully this new doctor in march will prescribe me my medications that help me with my umph….and I can be me again…..

Sorry for such a long blog post…but those are my Shoulda Woulda Coulda…..and that’s the honest truth…..lol….

Well, after starting out with a couple other blogs and choseing names for those realizing that the names were okay at the time but after time seem to pass, the names sure didnt fit very well anymore. So I sat for awhile and decided to go with a whole new look since it was the new year and kept with the same idea of my previous blogs but combined the ideas. I then thought long and hard for a name that was fitting and that is how I came up with the idea that I chose. I came up with never cry over spilled milk because in life we shouldn’t sweat the small things and especially in my situation with having 2 young kids I cant sweat the small things. Also, when it comes to my health and all I need to learn to be more relaxed and calm and live life to the fullest because each day is a whole different day, with me having fibromyalgia and other illnesses, I never know what tommorrow is going to bring me. So I hope you enjoy my blog and the name!!!